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Animism into Maga hood....

It seems that the combo of damaged cognition and focus to my brain from the lived experience of psychotic months, and post these, depressed states, would prefer to sabotage my creativity in it's usual channels of pursuit. Fuck it! Who am I without my craftings and makings! I have two, bigger then Ben Hur, tres fancy sheets o watercolour paper 100% cotton, but very blank. So to speak, not draw, but speak. This is the crux of the matter.... In an impassioned twirl, always the best vibe for spell casting (except also relaxed calm) I had reached the end of my tether. Pharmaceuticals, riverside ambles pondering, psychotherapy, tarot and oracle decks were leading me to this point. A humble acknowledgement of the spirits of the lands, waters and airs for welcoming us home, a raising of energies...to whoosh out stagnation, spiritual debris, negative thought projections. Move along lost souls and wayward spirits, to whence they belong or have unfinished business to attend to, and call in cr...

A few rambly ponderings 9 months on....

A happy day yesterday of being a dolphin at the beach with a dear friend, who threw a line in to no avail. Well, it was a divine crisp winters sunshiney day, to be knee deep in ocean, so that's an avail!  Afters, I returned home and had some pondering, in authenticity. As I looked at the kitchen sink, with cat food tins awaiting rinsing, attracting vinegar flies and a general mycelium network growth. Feeling i didn't want the perpetration of inviting anyone to support, aka judge me, in assisting to tidy my own napalm kitchen mess, I had to leave them to their own devices for another day. Today I was fibro slow, and the fungi continued to spread n expand its messages of telegraphed connection... I am 9 months down the track, wide and wobbly, back home. In Recovery from a fragmenting nervous breakdown. Aka in psychiatric jar label language, an acute psychotic episode. Don't be afeared, as this word can trigger peeps into. I hurt no one, suffered deeply, my reputation somewhat...

The Craft and The Crazy......can they coexist?

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I would like to speak a little to two phenomena that, may, coexist. 1) A deep loving commitment to healing of energies in place (waters, air, land) and remnant wounded resonances therein, if / where possible. Alongside, 2) trauma and stressors that can push ones sanity beyond boundaries into, let's face it psychosis, or states close to. None of these are words I use lightly, or without a great sense of rawness and vulnerability touching my core..... These topics are not easy ones, not comfortable, but perhaps important, enough for to me to raise from the sediments within, for I believe that with the dominant paradigm we live in, those deemed mad may well be carrying (literally) more than a kernel of truth. That our continent has a story including terrible acts that ripple out and remain shadowed in the land, alongside beautyous demonstrations of her care. For me she, is a her....our mother beneath our feet. I feel also, that the tide is turning, as more folks begin to take a peek a...

Peeling onions.....

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Welcome to a space betwixt and between, where you're welcome to dwell a whiles. On the edge of a village, and natures wildings, here's the cottage door ajar. The realms of folk yet beyonds. The kettles on, up for a brew? Could be Baba Yaga's place? Labels are accepted writ only upon jars, and the transmutation of others lead into pathways to creativity and magix.... So if someone's named you with words or invocations of a paradigm that wounds, lets unpick that. I feel you. Re-embroider and re-stitch in language that mends and nourishes....Be it physical, emotional, mental or spirit name calling....we can transform that.... Touched by resonance from the cracking open which occurs when one has experiences that vary from consensual reality. Painted with a brush, hand crafted by over 30 years of shadow boxing, blended with integration. I will make an attempt to share some recipes, which may be botanically inclined. I know we get told, pharma is the key when there's grey...